Thursday, July 15, 2010

At ease - finally..

What do you feel when you have something to say that can change others way of thinking and feelings on you? It is not necessarily a change for good for some but might be great news for others - it depends on which side they are. But here I want to talk about people who most probably will not understand and will not want to accept the things you’ll say. Do you still have the guts to tell them? Will you be able to handle the reaction you'll get? What’s left for you after that? Whatever it is, I always believe that to stay true to yourself is the key. One person amazingly can keep their mouth shut - sometimes forever, from telling the most important things in their life to other people who are usually the closest one to them. Why? I think because of the strong feeling of love, respect, responsibility, cares and extremely afraid of losing what they are having now. It makes sense though. Why want to risk everything that you have for something that you're not sure? Are you losing your mind?? Again, stay true to yourself because that is the best gift you can give to yourself. Being happy in front of others and ignore what your heart feels might help...but only for a while. Tell the truth so you will have some peace in your life. Does it worth to do? Neither of us knows. You will only get the answer until the moment you actually let it out from your chest...one thing for sure, you will be relief. Good luck to everyone who are having the same dilemma as I am before..

P/S: I am Who I am...

Sarah Delia

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

I can survive this...

For almost a month I can't even have one good night sleep...I think its because I think too much about my belief and my family recently. Too much argument in myself causing too much depression on me. Can't discuss with anyone - or actually I don't know who to discuss with. It is not a small matter...it is big. Way too big. This issues was not just started but since I can remember things. The consequences of this might resulting in I lost my family, my belief and even myself if I made the wrong choices. Up to this moment - actually, I already have a decision. But the right time to disclose my stand to all is still not there yet. I have to wait again - hopefully not too long this time. I never thought that these things could happen to me. I never encountered such a weird yet wonderful yet confusing feeling like this before. I believe I can survive this because I know HE is with me in every way...

P/S: Everything happen by God's will

Sarah Delia

Introduction

I need a place to release things that have been stucked in me for years. I'm trying to keep my sanity as much as I could...so that I can tell myself that I'm not yet crazy. Hopefully by having My Heart, I get the chance to know more about myself and other peoples and things around me. I believe in true love. I believe I have ONE love...to know whether it is true enough or not, I'll have to wait. If we were meant to be together...eventually we will have each other. I'm ready to wait for you...

P/S: I Love U

Sarah Delia